Moments to share

2am up.
So it's hard to get thought a regular day without you, really.
Every little thing that I see
Every thought that pops into my head
I want to share it with you
I find it really hard. When these moments go by and noone else was able to share them a little with me
As simple as seeing the most beautiful cloud formation
or feeling this thunder rumble my room
or that my tattoo is in itching phase
and that I just spied on some dodgy truck unloading in the carpark under my room at 2am.
But I want to share these all with you

That's actually why I'm getting married.
I don't want to do this stuff without you
You make everything more fun.

plus, you give me butterflies.

But this past week and a half have been impossible.
I mean it's hard to get through a day
they bubble up from within me
Maybe that's why I sometimes get sad

I guess it's possible that good things can overflow in the form of a bad feeling. Because you missed it.
ANyways. two weeks is enough.
There is nothing more that I wan't to do in life than spend every day with you
Seriously.
there is stuff i would like to do
places to go
people to see
but it all really doesnt matter to me in the end

I know maybe this is cheesy.
or won't make sense
it's after 2am
but it's not intended that way.
I love you.

Tonight I rode to my regular La Porchetta pizza takeaway dinner
I'm sorry but there is the most wicked lightening outside right now
lights up the room through the curtains
I opened the curtains to get the full show
you can sleep any night
lightening however comes not as often
the funny thing is that it is SO gnarly but the thunder is a good ten seconds behind
I wonder how bad it is right there in the centre
Throat is sore and it didnt help that I watched an episode of La Ink where a chick had to get her tonsils removed because she had chronic throat problems.
That is so me
read it here first.
so in two years when we resort to getting my tonsil surgery.
you will know I have suffered
and for at least three years before this too
man if only i didnt have this issue
i wonder if the work i produced would have been better
it really bugs me
this throat
but that's not the point
I forget where I changed tune from what I came here to write.
but seeing its already far up there ^^^ somewhere
I should stop
I've never really forced myself to sleep as much as I have been trying tonight
It's like I know i NEED to finish this esssay tomorrow.

I will get this glaring monitor out of my face though
and perhaps lie in the lighting room listening the rain
it's draughty in here man
but good roof rain noises
for those of you who appreciate that kind of acoustics
XO(2am)XO